Rough Week!!--Please write him!!!!

Hey Mommy

So this week i experienced a ton of feelings, the ultimate highs, and the ultimate lows! This week was zone conference, and before zone conference i was on the verge of killing my comps.. ok not seriously, but i was absolutely fed up with everything. I had a list of concerns to discuss with president during our enterview. The funny thing was, he already knew about these concerns. I hope someday i can be as spiritually in tune as him. seriously, hours before our enterview, during the conference itself, he discussed all of the concerns i had, and everytime he answered the questions that i didnt even ask, he looked straight at me with that look that says, "i know what you are experiencing." it was a great conference. At one point, we, as a zone, we signed banners of our new culture, things we want to impliment as a team. (it is a set of bullet points on the last page of preach my gospel, titled "Remember this..") and while signing it we each individually spoke of the commitments we wanted to make. I spoke of mediocracy, and how i was done just being mediocre. And it is a huge challenge! I realized that this last transfer i have allowed myself to slip into the pit of mediocracy, and i want out! lol My personal interview with president was great, he basically told me to keep going, and he knew the struggles i am facing with comps. So for a couple of days following zone conference, things were awesome in the companionship, no one lost their temper and it all was going perfectly. Last night, boom, back to normal and once again contention and pride fill our companionship.

So as you can imagine, i am really frustrated right now, but i know i am here for a reason, and i refuse to just sit here and wish and day-dream about next transfer. One huge challenge lays ahead, but i am wiling to do my best and i refuse to be mediocre from this point on.

The thing that is killing me is the lack of progress with investigators. Although some people are progressing, it isnt coming as quickly as i would like. No baptismal dates, but hopefully we can set some this week. Basically i realized that maybe i am not suppost to be counting baptisms as success for this transfer, maybe my goals should lie in my
comps.

But that is honestly where i stand right now, nothing held back. Please pray extra hard for me this week, and i in return will be praying for you all!

Love you

Elder Kenck